Me Thinks

I could already feel it settling it..



my body and rest worked like clockwork due to my work schedule...



it would always start out like this...



my head would begin to feel heavy as it sank into my pillow slowly like a pebble to an ocean...









I would begin to feel the senses in my hands and legs let go and turn their heads towards a different direction...









my feet would begin to feel numb as the blood began to traffic slow allowing the thin air to tickle my toes...









as my body went on its temporary leave for the time being,



it never remembered to turn off my brain before closing the door.















while I laid in the absence of light, I could hear my bones mingling as my muscles I took shape to better position itself...









they made noises of fake plastic pearls rubbing against one another...









my eyes were too busy trying to make sense of the moving sand patterns it saw behind my eyelids...



it'd watch these dots dance and play and scatter with one another, entertaining my brain until it'd turn itself off.









I'd think of old memories,



old loves,



new loves,



the what ifs...















...and why nots?









"what if I just left without saying goodbye..."









I'd shift my head every now and then only to hear every strand of my hair rustle like dry leaves and grass on a windy day...









my nose would begin to take deeper breaths as my thoughts descended into a thick like darkness in the back rooms of my mind...